The greatest thing I am learning to do, is to care. To show up, be present and give everything I have to that moment. Caring is hard, engaging is hard, showing up and being present is hard. It leaves you open to vulnerability, to getting hurt, to rejection and embarrassment. It takes a lot of trust, both in the people you are showing up for; that they will also show up (and often, for me, they don't), and trust in myself that I am enough, that I can be vulnerable, that I can care and that my expectations of someone's response are non-existent. As I learn this, I see the beauty around me, I see the other incredible people who are ready to show up. I see the damage of not showing up. I see how much it hurts, I see the damage I have left when I didn't think I was enough.
I am ready to show up, I am ready to be in the moment, whatever that moment brings, even if those around me are not ready to show up, I will be there with an open heart.